| I'm done with Lj |
[12 Mar 2008|09:41pm] |
In light of Lj deciding to do away completely with the Basic account level, without making any sort of announcement, I have decided to do away with Lj.
I will use my MySpace account for blogs from now on, rather than crossposting from Lj to Ij to Blogger to MySpace.
I will gladly friend anyone on MySpace from Lj or Ij, as long as you let me know where I know you from. To those of you who don't have a MySpace account, I deeply regret having to do this but I just cannot stand how utterly despicable Lj has become. Corporate American seems to have gotten its clutches on what was once a really nice, community-based site, where selling-out was a joke. Now it's clear that Lj has completely sold out, and I am just not a supporter of the corporate world.
I am fully aware that I still maintain the community Letters of Love on Lj. Until the project's website is completely, I will continue to crosspost from the Letters of Love MySpace to the Letters of Love community on Lj. After that, the community will no longer be used, and all accounts I ever used on Lj deleted.
I am just entirely fed up with Lj neglecting its users--whom are the sole reason that Lj continues to exist at all. I refuse to be a part of this anymore. At one time I felt that I might be able to help remedy the problems within Lj; now I see that the folks there no longer even care about their community--why else would they have done such a thing and not tell us? The Strikethrough incident is more proof of this.
So, that being said, I'll see you all on MySpace. If not, please take care and good luck in everything you do. Other than that, it's time for me to move on.
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| for three weeks she sleeps through the rain |
[08 Mar 2008|04:35pm] |
I wanted to update, then realized I have nothing useful to say.
I've been working, trying to catch up on schoolwork, working on LOL (we now have a group on MySpace), and now that Lj is finally revising its abuse policy I've been speaking my mind about that. I've become awfully pro-active lately. (:
I ran into my friend Justin the other day. Between him and Mom, I've realized that I have no reason to stress about my grades and GPA. I just need to graduate. So if I fall a little behind, no big deal, right? I am just so fucking OCD, such a perfectionist. Maybe it's because I slacked off a lot in high school, so I'm trying to redeem myself and be the perfect daughter. I really don't know. Lauren gets straight A's, so that might have something to do with it. I guess sometimes I feel like I have to live up to it, you know? But realistically, I don't. So I've stopped stressing myself out over being behind this semester. Obviously I'm not going to flunk out and be as careless as I was in high school, but I'm not going to kill myself trying to stay on top of everything with perfect grades, either.
I guess that's all. (:
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[05 Mar 2008|10:27pm] |
Vista is being a bastard. It's not letting my Passport cache the icon I just made for ![[info]](http://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) towriteletters and it's pissing me off because I can't upload it.
Dammit, every time I look at the clock it seems to say 10:23; I looked at the microwave about five minutes ago, and now my laptop says 10:23. Cell phone says 10:28, so at least that isn't taunting me. Some days are just harder than others, and usually I'm fine until something stupid like this reminds me. I suppose I'll get over it eventually. I guess I feel kind of guilty, not letting it go. Eh.
I have that 30-40 page paper due tomorrow in DAT-290 (Digital Arts Project), and I still haven't finished it. I just don't have the content to fill 30 pages. /:
I guess I should at least finish what I can.
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| can you feel it, don't you know there is no time? |
[03 Mar 2008|03:39pm] |
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Man, have I gotten spoiled with Firefox and its tab feature; I'm at school and they have IE 6 I think, so it doesn't have tabs yet. And I am way too lazy to plug my Passport in and use Firefox. Well.. Maybe in a little bit. :D
I actually came here to work, but Professor Biello isn't here so I'm basically just chilling here until my 5:20 class. I'm kicking myself, because I wish I had my book for my DAT-215 class; the whole thing is supposed to be done tomorrow, and I haven't even started yet. The end product, I gather, is a website built in Flash. I've been slacking on all of my responsibilities lately; I didn't even want to come here to work. :/
One of these days I'm going to reach that state of being where nothing bothers me, even screaming (grand)fathers. I don't want to be like my father and his father, where the most trivial thing warrants outbursts of terrible yelling. Sometimes I do have a hot temper, and cringe at it inside even when I'm doing it. Someday I want to have babies, and I don't want them to be afraid of me and walk on eggshells like I do with my father and grandfather. My father is actually worse, so I'm hoping I don't end up three times as bad.
Well, I guess since I am here I'll just work on stuff for LOL. towriteletters is doing well, with 10 members, and the MySpace has almost 50.
I'm actually in a writing mood, so maybe I'll write that story that's been lodged in my brain since last week. I have an idea, but nothing much to work with other than the idea--which is from a story my boss told me. He has a lot of those, but one of them really tickled me. So I think I'll write that, too.
And maybe I'll catch up on my Western Civ reading for tonight. (:
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| I really should be studying or something... |
[02 Mar 2008|08:42pm] |
What a weekend.
I actually went to a strip club for the first time. I went to the Gold Club last night with Mike, Robbie, Joey and a couple of Robbie's friends, for Robbie's birthday. I was actually pretty disappointed; I'd been really excited about it and it hadn't been everything I thought it would be. It was basically the same thing, over and over. The only dancer I liked was the last one we saw. She was actually playful and flirty, unlike the others; they never smiled or anything. They all kept doing this weird leg thing too, where it looked like their ankles and legs were broken at times. Big turnoff. But at least now I can say I went. (:
I also lost my fear of being in a suddenly serious relationship, my fear of planning things for the future.
My back and arm are still hurting from the fall last Monday, but more so my arm. My back seems to be getting better, but it does still hurt a lot. It's my lower back, and it sometimes feels like someone is stabbing my spine or something. I'm just hoping this isn't yet another chronic health problem, because I can only deal with so much.
But things are relatively good, at least things with Mike. He makes me feel loved and safe, and I'm not afraid to feel that way anymore.
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| any thought can be that begins the brand new tangled web you're spinning |
[28 Feb 2008|10:10pm] |
I have this problem with unnecessarily rude people. Like, if you're going around with your foot in your mouth and people are correcting you--without being dickheads about it--there is really no need to be an ass. Maybe it's just me, because I tend to be a lot more laid back about things (most of the time, heh).
Anyway, my back is still killing me from the fall on Monday, and my arm.. Well, it's been better. But I'm managing. The worst part is, yesterday and this morning I woke up feeling fine, and by the time I got out of work I was ready to go score some sort of drugs just to make it go away. (Kidding, obviously, but still.) It also doesn't help that instead of getting real work done, I've been sitting here reading my friend's page and eating M&M's with love messages on them (from my sweetie). They're cute; they say things like "U & Me" and "Big Hug". He doesn't typically come off as the "romantic" type, but lately, I'm being swept off my feet. And that's hard to do to me. I'm not easily impressed. He gets cool points (which has become something like an inside joke for us. He is constantly taking away cool points for all of the dorky things I do, hehe). (:
That Western Civ paper? I ended up having to rewrite it and turn it in late, because Vista made my Passport eat it. I went to print it out in the school library and, well, it was gone. It was one of those cry or kill someone moments. Instead I had a smoke, went to class and convinced my professor to let me turn it in late without penalty (he thought I was either a really good actress, or it had actually happened, so either way I deserved an extension). I don't know of another professor--that I've had in the last two years--that would do that. So he gets cool points, too, though not as many as the hairy guy.
My blood sugar is low, but I'm too lazy to go get something to eat. I hate being tiny, with fast metabolism and naturally low blood sugar. It's been pissing me off lately. This morning I didn't even make it two hours after eating breakfast; I thought I was going to pass out while driving to work. Scary.
Anyway, it's 10:30 and Mike should be home from work so he's probably going to be calling in a second. I know I'm sucking at commenting, but I am reading! Goodnight, and have a great weekend!
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| and I will always be just so inviting |
[26 Feb 2008|09:49pm] |
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To-do:
- write Western Civ paper
- get a good start on 30-40 pg project description paper
- get caught up on DAT-205/DAT-215 work
- get caught up on Western Civ reading
- get caught up on Meteorology reading/homework
- start seriously considering dropping out of school.. again
- post Kay's birthday party pics
- clean up and post Mystic Aquarium pics
- read all of the Crow comics I just bought this weekend
- avoid ice, at all costs
Yes, I said ice. I slipped and fell on a patch of ice yesterday morning on my trek across the street from the parking lot to work, and landed on my bad arm. Needless to say, the arm is completely fucked now, as well as my back and legs. Makes me want some good dope, almost.
I so want to write up a huge post about this weekend, but it was just too awesome for words. I'm as happy as I can be, more so than in a really long time. But unfortunately this happy girl needs to go write a paper for her favorite class, because I actually really care about it. Unlike Meteorology; I bombed my test tonight and now I'm wondering if I actually care. I just test horribly; nothing seems to stick, no matter how well I take notes or pay attention. I'm sure studying would have helped, had I remembered that the test was tonight, but even simple questions I should have known had me completely stumped.
Well, just wanted to let you all know I am still alive, and despite the pain am quite well.
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| the indigo children come |
[22 Feb 2008|12:40am] |
(Which I've had stuck in my head all day, the same four words over and over lol)
Somehow, in all of my precautions not to get sick until after my weekend away with my sweetie, I managed to pick up this virus. I've had a sore throat for three days, with the occasional aching of both ears. This morning I swallowed my pride and went to the doctor. I'd been hoping it was just a sinus thing, but they said it's a virus. Luckily, I'm feeling better already; my throat and ears are all itchy, and I keep getting really hot and sweaty, which means it's going away. Which, in turn, means I'll be fine by Saturday when we leave. (:
Mike found us a super cheap hotel room on his first try, even though I'd tried three or so times and came up with nothing. I'm stoked to tell him that the price went from $66 to $60 since last night, so I booked it tonight to snag that extra $6 discount. (We so didn't want to spend a huge amount of money just on a place to sleep.)
Anyway, I'm glad I'm feeling better cause I'd just started to get excited about the whole thing, and would have been upset if we'd had to postpone.. again. And speaking of hot and sweaty, I feel like it's 90°, lol.
I'll try to update normally soon, I swear. Like, you know, about life and stuff. (I've got pics of Kaylene's 3rd birthday party that I really want to post!) But first, I have to keep working on my project.
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[10 Feb 2008|10:37pm] |
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Quick: The weather here is crazy. We had winds about 40-50mph earlier with snow and a bit of rain in between, and it's just ridiculously cold now with 30mph winds. Part of me is hoping tomorrow morning will be terrible, so that I can call out of work and sleep in. I don't want to get up early. D: It's raining again now, I think.
Today was Lauren's birthday. We ended up cancelling the party because Mom was sick but later on watched Sixteen Candles (it was her 16th). <33 So the day wasn't a total loss.
Mike and I rescheduled our planned trip to Mystic/New London for the weekend after next. He has to work both Friday and Saturday, which would make leaving Saturday impossible, and this also gives us time to put more money aside for the trip.
I just wanted to let all my Ij/Lj friends know that I'll probably be really shitty on the commenting this next week. I'm a little behind on homework and am ridiculously busy in general.
Oh, and Friday's episode of Degrassi was great. :D
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| Who are you to wave your finger, you must've been out your head |
[06 Feb 2008|01:52pm] |
I need some new CDs. I think Friday I will get some. I'm really craving Tool, something other than the mixed CD I have of a bunch of their shit. I'm also getting really into Paramore. So I think I'll pick up Tool's 10,000 Days and Paramore's Riot or whatever it's called and get myself something else to listen to. Because there is only so many times I can listen to the millions of CDs I already own. Ha.
Today is one of those days where I can look back at all I've been through and just let it go. It doesn't bother me today. Maybe that's because my life is going really well right now. There's a handful of people who always bring a smile to my face and you know who you are. Everyone else I just ignore.
Well, I'm off to get something to eat and then head to the school library so I can get some work done. Read: It's really quiet there.
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| I'd rather die than give you control |
[04 Feb 2008|04:28pm] |
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I'm convinced I'm psychic. I've known for weeks that the Giants were going to win last night, and I called it in a poll. I knew for months last year that the Colts were going to not only go to the Superbowl, but that they were also going to win. I have it down in my physical journal somewhere. Every time I pick scratch offs for my boyfriend, he wins. It's starting to get kind of freaky. I just seem to know things, and not just lucky guesses. I get these weird feelings of confident knowing. Creepy.
Anyway, today I'm batting a thousand. I didn't fall asleep til maybe two this morning because my arm hurt, and kept waking up over and over. Then I went to work and forgot to stuff the towel in my window, and it started snowing. I had to go over to the parking lot across the street again and shove the towel in when I finally looked out the window and realized it was flurrying. Shortly after that, my hypoglycemia set in and my sugar hit below zero. I couldn't sit up straight, couldn't look at anything, and ended up sick. I didn't think I could drive so I had to call for a ride home. Then I get home and fall asleep to something on the Discovery Channel, and wake up and eat and whatnot. I went to go have a smoke and as I came inside it felt like I got stung by something on my right knee. It didn't last more than a few seconds, but then it happened again when I sat down. So I pulled up my pantleg and there's like a tiny broken blood vessel or blood blister or something. Fucking weird.
And now it's snowing again. Luckily I stuffed the towels in the window, but Lisa Mazda is still across the street from my work. Somehow I have to get a ride over there to pick her up so I can go to class for 5:20 tonight. Meanwhile my blood sugar is still low. It was really scary today. I actually thought I might finally completely black out and end up in the hospital.
I ended up having to cancel my meeting with Dr. Biello, regarding the Digital Arts website I'm rebuilding. Hopefully we can reschedule soon; I want to get to work on it right away.
Edited at 10:13 pm:
I just uploaded all of my favorite icons here. Yay!
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| A real update? Nah. |
[01 Feb 2008|11:44pm] |
Okay, so I'm really tired. I've been working on my client's order form since last night, and I'm running into the same problem right now as I did last night: too tired to think. Luckily there isn't much left to be done. I'm adding the CSS right now, and then I just have to stick the heavy-duty JavaScript in. I'll finish both of these tomorrow morning, test it, and have it ready to meet him for 3:00.
I've been really tired these last couple of days. I don't know if it's because of how busy I've gotten or if it's a huge iron deficiency, but I'm betting it's got more to do with the latter. I ran out of iron pills right before a certain time of the month, which lasted longer than normal. So I think it's got to do with being anemic. I should have gotten more vitamins while I was out tonight, but whatever.
Anyway, I bought a Nintendo DS case for my Passport, since they're about the same size and I needed one badly. I also got a pair of really nice boots on a whim, because they were ridiculously comfortable and were on clearance for $7.48. My jaw dropped when the girl told me the price. I was ready to spend $15-20 on them.
Life at home is chaotic, as per the usual. There are just way too many people staying here, so we're all butting heads and out of personal--and regular--space.
I want to start writing again, as soon as I get my school work done this weekend. I have an idea for a story. I will post it whenever I finally get it out of my system.
Also, I know I've been seriously sucking at commenting lately, but I promise I do read. I just don't have much time when I do get on. Please don't remove me!
The temperatures here in Connecticut are supposed to go up to near 50° F these next couple of days. Have a great weekend, everyone!
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| A little dirt can't hurt, right? |
[30 Jan 2008|04:42pm] |
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I'm in the school library right now and the signal here sucks. Meh.
Today was one of those days where it seriously felt as if nature were up against me. I woke up and it was only misting, so I decided to pin my hair up and wear my flats and long coat. Bad idea; by the time I left the house, it was pouring. Luckily the raindrops weren't heavy; I'd have been twice as soaked. Needless to say, by the time I got to work my shoes were soaked (and I don't think that's a good thing), as well as my pants and coat. Luckily I had an umbrella. "I don't mind the rain; I just don't like the problems it's causing me," I said to myself as I made a run for it to the building. Oh, and did I mention that my driver's window is currently stuck, so I have to keep a towel stuck in there when it rains?
When I got out of work, it was sunny and windy as hell. If I wasn't dried off already, I sure was now. Not to mention the dirt I kept somehow getting in my mouth. Not cool.
Anyway, I have a little time before class so I want to get crackin' on my client's order form. One of these days I'll make a ginormous post with all the juicy details of my oh-so-interesting life.
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| Multi-genre |
[28 Jan 2008|12:12pm] |
I just figured something out; I don't need to pick a genre. I'll write whatever the hell I want. I want to write a book about web design. I want to finish my mystery/suspense. I like to write horror/thriller. Sometimes I like to write vampy stuff, or even erotica. I even like to write that controversial LGBT stuff (two of which are in progress, and will probably never be finished; I tend to work on like a gazillion projects at once).
I've noticed that most writers stick to just one genre, and when they try to switch genres they usually bomb at it. So for some reason I had it stuck in my head that I could experiment for now but eventually I'd have to pick one, or write under different names for each genre. Um, why? Why not just write whatever the hell I want? I could be multi-genre, as long as I don't suck at it. (Read: As long as my readers don't think I suck at it.)
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| New season of Degrassi starts in two weeks! |
[26 Jan 2008|03:58pm] |
I'm not so sure about the love thing, but making bad choices in the past? Yeah, that's me. Though I guess you could say my love for Kaylene from the moment I met her changed me. And I do tend to be fiery passionate.
I'm getting kind of bored with my clothing. Most of my shirts have gotten ridiculously tight again, in a certain upper area. ::headdesk::
Things at work are possibly getting serious; I may end up permanent with a job description other than just "Web Development department". I've also gotten pretty handy with CSS and PHP. Makes me feel cool.
The new semester at school just started up. I missed my entire final project class on Thursday because I thought it started at 3:20 when it actually ended at 3:20. Go me. Otherwise it's cool so far. I'm trying to stay ahead of everything this time around, even though so far I've only done a teensy bit of reading.
Everything's all good, though. Just busy and trying to save tons of money. I'm moving out soon, so I want to save up as much as possible before I do it.
Sorry I suck at comments lately.
Xposted at Lj.
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| Sinus infection indeed |
[22 Jan 2008|03:40pm] |
I had to call out of work again this morning, but I went to the doctor and they gave me amoxicillin, which is already helping (combined with a long nap after I got home). I went through hell at the pharmacy; apparently the doctor I saw called the Rx into the wrong Rite Aid. Which makes no sense, really, because she asked me five times which Rite Aid I used. Apparently she still didn't get it right.
Ah, well. At least tomorrow I can go back to work, and my first class of the semester tomorrow night.
xposted to Lj
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